So I haven’t made a a lot of posts because I honestly, have Alphabet soup brain. I’m hoping to get back to this. But one of the things I have noticed is how much I am grieving the person I married… I’m grieving all of him… and I don’t think I fully understand that. But this is a Poem that came out of the last few days, working through the grief and worry (yes I still worry about him, I always will. But it is a scary world out there…)

To the Soldier I married
I’ll always be your wife
To the soldier I married
You’ll always have a home with me
To the soldier I married
My home is wherever you are
To the soldier I married
I’ll always be waiting for you to come home to me

To the soldier I promised to love until death do us part
I meant that
To the soldeir I promised I’d always be there
I’ll always be here
To the soldier I promised you’d never be alone
I’ll always be with you
To the soldier I promised to be loyal and faithful to
I still am

To the soldier who is no longer my husband
God I miss you
To the soldier who is no longer my husaband
Did it have to end this way
To the soldier who is no longer my husband
I pray for your safety wherever the road takes you
To the soldier who is no longer my husband
I wish you happiness
To the soldier who is no longer my husband
I worry about you everyday
To the soldier who is no long my husband
I still love you