You say you saw my heart first
and that my looks didn’t matter
But I want to be there treasure
The one you didn’t realize was rite there
When you were looking elsewhere
When you keep looking elsewhere

You say you just get curious
Like that’s your hall pass
But your curiousness gives me a feeling of doubt
Your curiousness damadges my heart
The heart you say you love
But that’s not love

Your lack of control hurts
When I know you know it hurts me
Yet you still do it
I know it doesn’t matter if I tell you it hurts
I know it doesn’t matter if I pull away
Yeah you’ll question it
But it won’t change the outcome
Been there
Done that

Believed you everytime you said you’d change
Believed you everytime you said you’d try harder
Believed you everytime you said you were done with it
Believed you everytime you said you wanted me
And only me

Cuz in the end
You still chose to hurt me
In the end
I still held on to hope
Knowing it would hurt

I trusted you
And for what?
What is so special about feeling this way
Broken
Abandoned
Lost
Alone
Undeserving

What is so good about waiting for you to grow?
Why did I trust you when you said you’d never do that?
Why did I trust you when I knew you were lying to my face?
Why did I trust you when you swore you’d change?

I didn’t want you to change
I wanted you to grow
I wanted our vows to matter
I wanted to matter
I wanted you to give me the love and care I gave you
But guess what
You were never going to give me that
Because deep in your mind and heart
My heart was never enough for you to truly love
Because in the end
It was my looks that mattered
You like my heart but
You can’t get over my looks

Because to you
I was never beautiful
I was never the one for you

Because if I was
Being faithful wouldn’t be a chore
Being faithful wouldn’t be so hard for you
Being faithful wouldn’t be a question

It would be easy
It wouldn’t be a choice
It wouldn’t be a decision
It would just be