By that I mean, I am ready to start sharing my story. I have had so many points in my life where other people thought they could tell me what my story is or who I am or why am I not enough. But honestly the only person who can tell my story is me. From my perspective. From my reality. From my experience. I’m not going to say that my life has been easy but whose life has been?

When you start growing as a person you realize and have time to go back in your memories and process the things that may have caused some of the most damage to you. Then you are kind of left with the thought of, well what do I do with that? Sometimes people go to therapy, or to other coping mechanisms they may have learned as kids, teenagers, young adults. Sometimes they begin internalizing and over analyzing how to deal and move forward. I am one of those people I have dealt with a lot on my own and learned how to cope with certain things in my life and have always internalized the need to do better. Because I have always blamed that on myself even though those situations were not my fault I still have made it my fault. Do I know where this self criticism comes from? No. But I know it happens.

One of the things that I have learned though through the years is, is if you find another person who can relate to you, that can make a HUGE difference. When I can have an honest conversation with someone and say “hey, you know I have been feeling this way.” and it’s received with an “oh yeah, I have felt that way before too, this is what I have done or do to help.” vs being met with “well why? That is really weird.” or being shut down immediately because your point is not understood. It has deterred me in the past with wanting to share my story. I guess, I am hoping that this blog can possibly be that validation someone needs to keep going. Life is heavy and when you are coping on your own it can get heavier.

So, I am going to use this platform to help myself process. Tell my story, of my life, and my experiences. Maybe in all of this make connections with others and help validate and help someone anyone feel seen. Because this world is hard, and kindness, compassion, love are not given or found easily anymore.

Here goes….